Depression sucks. This week hit me harder than I expected and I can't describe the half-awake, numbness that I've been experiencing. It drains me of all energy and motivation. And I even had no desire to really eat or to shower this time around, which has never happened. I don't know what's got me feeling this low, but I'm trying to get by and keep the kids alive. So, workouts and whatnot are on the backburner until I can gain the strength to climb up out of this dark hole I found myself in.

Today was a rather lazy day for me. I still did the laundry and dishes, picked up after the kids, and cleaned up some random messes throughout the hours, but overall I was reading or watching documentaries (when I wasn't making the kids something to eat). By this evening I thought I wouldn't have the energy or motivation to workout, but it came to me. I completed a full hour of upper body toning exercises. And then finished it off with half an hour of walking (and a bit of dancing to Shakira for some added cardio). Like yesterday, I haven't been wearing my apple watch, but wore it for my workouts and my move and exercise goals have already been met in this hour and a half alone!

Tomorrow is a cardio day and I think I may try some old school Tae Bo or a kickboxing workout... we shall see!

Sunday was a much needed rest day. Not only was I sore all over, but I could hardly stay awake in church. I've never felt so tired in all my life; I was in bed by 8:53.

This afternoon I spent an hour listening to my playlist and steppin' on my step. I worked on my abs for 15 minutes afterward, too. My hip flexors are hating me, but they'll get used to it.

Tomorrow is legs or arms or something. I put on my apple watch today just for the workout and managed to hit my move goal within both workouts so that was awesome. I think aiming for 450-500 calories per workout isn't too much of a stretch, especially on cardio days. We'll see what I can get in tomorrow!

Nine days down... 145 to go!

I can already feel a boost of confidence in this week of workouts alone! It's amazing what a good sweat session can do. If I can only get myself up and at 'em on days when I'm feeling crappy. What has helped is doing the workouts early on in the day, if I can, otherwise working out after the kids are in bed is the only down time I can manage.

Nonetheless, I got in around an hour on Friday and half an hour today. Friday I put on my summer playlist and used my step for half an hour right after my Flex Friday arm routine from TIU.

Today, I decided to throw it back to my old school summer routine. Since the hubby took the kids to his mom's, I had the whole day to myself. I slept in, watched a bit of Tudors drama, and then sweated it out to some of my favorite throwback routines from TIU's bikini series and love your body series for a leg, booty, and abs workout! I was shaking with every rep, but loved every second!

Tomorrow is my rest day and bible study day. I'm putting more research and thought into my Cultivating Confidence plan, since I'm new to intuitive eating, and since I'm still right at the beginning of this journey myself, I'll share more about what I'm doing specifically when I can tweak a few things. Although, I'm loving the confidence boost I'm feeling already; excited to see what the next few weeks will bring!

Wednesday night I got my jam on and it. felt. AMAZING! Les Mills Body Jam never misses a beat and I am left wanting more! Dance Like Nina should definitely be on your rotation if you love dance workouts. The music and the moves make me feel 10 years younger!

Thursday morning and afternoon was spent at the pool with my sister and the kids. How awesome is it that we both had our boys followed by our girls? It's a blessing for them to have someone to grow up with so close in age.

Today was meant for arms, but I'm going to do that tomorrow afternoon before we celebrate my niece's birthday. And speaking of birthdays, my son is turning 7 in a few days! Time flies, so I have to make the most of what God is giving me!

Today I wanted to focus on my legs since I've been feeling pretty confident with them lately (mostly due to their new sunkissed glow). I have to tell you, adding a little color really gave my confidence a boost tenfold! I've got to look into spray tans!

This afternoon I picked three leg workouts to hit the inner and outer thighs, glutes, and hams. I went with a few old school Tone It Up YouTube videos. You can try them out here: inner and outer thighs routine, stop, drop, & booty pop, and the love your booty workout.

This evening Daniel and I took the kids out to ride their bikes and walked a bit (as well as pushed the itty bitty one around mostly so she wouldn't crash).

Now I'm ready for a shower and going to fall asleep before midnight! I am feeling good getting active again. Tomorrow is cardio day... and I think I feel a dance party coming on!